HUMILITY – A START

Humility opens the door to change.

I live bound in a cage of limitation: my humanity.

There were things I hoped, ways I willed, paths I walked, beliefs I held;

There were fears abounding, anger, lusts, and envy, sneakiness, mis-directions, Lies;

I was living proof that a life reduced to denial, self-will, self-loathing, and escape will self-destruct.

So I did.

And found myself in a pit,

Just shy of death, with no escape, bereft of remedy.

I remained in that pit while outer circumstances changed.

I knew only that if I could not find a way to live…I would die.

I slowly came to recognize that I was powerless to fix

The broken wreck I had become

And had no will left to even try.

Then I knew I had to find my way to a God of my understanding,

But no self-conceived notion would suffice, all such notions collapsed into fear and frustration and despair until finally I was blank and unmoving and waiting

I

was humbled

And humbled heart cried out

Help me help me help me

I can not help myself

I collapsed to the floor and beyond all senses or thoughts

MY VESSEL FILLED TO OVERFLOWING WITH WHAT I CANNOT SAY

BUT MY HEART SANG WITH JOY JOY

WASHED CLEAN I WAS

AND

SAVED

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3 thoughts on “HUMILITY – A START

  1. 1st miracle I was ever aware of, first of the many miracles experienced since
    A mystery that stays a mystery, and I in wonderment
    And so live daily with mystery at the core
    Walk, He and I, along the fertile shore
    That’s down the path from the Chapel
    That’s down the path from the Spring
    Of everlasting waters
    By Divine Grace given,
    Humbly received
    Mystery of the un named
    Holy One

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