Humility opens the door to change.
I live bound in a cage of limitation: my humanity.
There were things I hoped, ways I willed, paths I walked, beliefs I held;
There were fears abounding, anger, lusts, and envy, sneakiness, mis-directions, Lies;
I was living proof that a life reduced to denial, self-will, self-loathing, and escape will self-destruct.
So I did.
And found myself in a pit,
Just shy of death, with no escape, bereft of remedy.
I remained in that pit while outer circumstances changed.
I knew only that if I could not find a way to live…I would die.
I slowly came to recognize that I was powerless to fix
The broken wreck I had become
And had no will left to even try.
Then I knew I had to find my way to a God of my understanding,
But no self-conceived notion would suffice, all such notions collapsed into fear and frustration and despair until finally I was blank and unmoving and waiting
And humbled heart cried out
Help me help me help me
I can not help myself
I collapsed to the floor and beyond all senses or thoughts
MY VESSEL FILLED TO OVERFLOWING WITH WHAT I CANNOT SAY
BUT MY HEART SANG WITH JOY JOY
WASHED CLEAN I WAS
Mystery. Isn’t it.
1st miracle I was ever aware of, first of the many miracles experienced since
A mystery that stays a mystery, and I in wonderment
And so live daily with mystery at the core
Walk, He and I, along the fertile shore
That’s down the path from the Chapel
That’s down the path from the Spring
Of everlasting waters
By Divine Grace given,
Mystery of the un named